In recent times, I've obviously given myself far too much credit for being self aware, because the truth of it is, I've just realised that I am a constant worrier (is that even a word?).
Well, to be specific, if I have to consider others in my actions, that's when I start worrying. When it's just you, you don't have to worry about anything. You don't have to worry about what the future holds, you don't have to worry about minding anybody's feelings, you don't have to worry about whether where you want to go on your next holiday is going to suit anyone.
As soon as you start thinking about other people though, it's all should we be doing this, I wonder if they'll mind doing that, am I being unreasonable if I want to stay here...where does it end?
I'm trying not to "look a gift horse in the mouth" (who the hell comes up with these sayings, really?) because I know that worrying never does any good. But then I start to worry about not worrying about things more - should I be taking this more seriously, should I be thinking more about the future, what if I make the same mistakes, what if I end up pushing everyone away?